True Story
I think I’m forever doomed with relationships…. not that what I want in the current one is going bad…. which I don’t think it is, which is nice…..
….but its like a constant over analyzing that I’m either not doing enough or doing something wrong, then the constant fear that I’m not there enough, and I want it to work, but with everything being online, it just feels like a massive disconnect, which doesn’t help.
If only he was here…. then I can only assume it’ll all be good, as then I’ll have him, and I’ll be able to snuggle him and feel his warmth and scent that I’m missing out on… with a sweet goodnight and a cuddle into dreamland…. and waking up with him by my side…..
*sigh*
…..and I can only hope it happens soon…. as I doubt I can handle much more of the disconnect before dropping into a ball of depressive unhappiness where then no one wants to be around me until the mood passes…. and who knows how long it’ll happen this time. :\